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Ugg...Awful day.

Breakfast--6:30-ish
Oatmeal as usual, was running late though, and dashed to get something, came back to find the end of my oatmeal like concrete. So I only really had half the bowl. Oh, I hate that!!

My 9:00 snack was delayed. Ended up being in lab (no food or drink) so I didn't get to eat until nearly 11:30. Had a bit of pretzels and arrowroot cookies, but even that didn't sit well, as my stomach felt so empty and rubmly.

Lunch was supposed to be at 12:00 but I felt so awful. Did have the two of Shell's Deviled Eggs that I had brought because I didn't think they would keep much longer out of the frige. (hey, you said it...those were mine... get your own!!...hehehe just kidding)

Missed my 3:00 snack entire. Ate too much about 5:30. My stomach already felt awful, but somehow I convinced myself that it was because it was so empty. Which was probably truly, until I just kept eating until it hurt because it was too full. 6 Spinach Nuggets what brand? with Mayo, Club Sticks with Guacamole and Hummus, and 3 ADBs.

After that, I fell dead asleep. I don't even remember lying down....I just felt so awful by then.

Woke up around 7:30, felt like I "should" eat dinner. Had a some turkey in a tortilla. Should have been fine, I just probably didn't need the food. Followed that up with a handful of jelly beans and a piece of easter chocolate (although just a small piece, I broke my poor easter bunny into 15 pieces, and told myself I could have one per day). poor little choc bunny....but better him then your tummy.

Just an awful day. Decision making went wrong at every turn. I'm just so stressed, and the stress is building up, I feel like I'm at the breaking point. But, everyone around me is busy too. Maybe not quite as stressed, but hard to know, I haven't exactly shared my desperation either. People are too busy to talk even if they really do care. And I really hate complaining (hard to tell, I know! )

I'm at the breaking point. Deciding between sucking it up, and playing pretend for another day in misery, or just laying down and crying now. Well, WE are here for you to vent too any time you need to....we maynot reply right way, but we will.... take care of you. Your trying....that is all you can do. {{hugs}}

*Sigh*

Ah, well. I guess we all have our days.

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