So, I have been trying really hard to be patient with all of this. I have managed to keep the tears away, and I have been able to supress my frustration. But, its just too much. I am so sick of being C and bloated. I am doing everything I can to get myself better ... but I feel like I have gotten worse! Because I'm C, its nearly impossible to identify my "triggers". Occasionally, I will realize that something is giving me gas or causing major bloat .. but I don't care as much about that as I do about know what is triggering my C!! Everytime I feel the slightest urge to go the bathroom, I run to the toilet and just hope for a normal BM. Doesn't happen. I always end up straining and forcing the tiniest bit out. I'm afraid I'm going to give myself a hernia  . I don't know what to do. There is so much stuff to remember .. I don't know the difference between a probiotic, and a prebiotic, and the SFS, and Miralax, and acidopholus (or HOWEVER you spell it!). I feel like I am so scrambled in this. I already have major issues about my body .. so bloating is about the worse thing for me right now. I get SUPER selfconscious and I feel disgusting when my belly gets so bloated. It keeps me from going out .. and in turn, my relationship with my boyfriend is suffereing. I feel like I am keeping him from so many things. Plus, and this may be TMI, but I don't ever want to have sex b/c i am embarrassed of my bloating, or just b/c of the fact that my IBS causes sex to be painful! AAAAAAHHHH! I am 19, and I just want to be a normal teenager ... instead I spend my time crying in the bathroom just wishing I could go like a normal person!
I'm sorry for the long post .. I needed to get this out. I don't have anyone else to talk to about it ... my family just can't understand how miserable IBS really makes you. If there is a C person out there who is stable ... can you give me some advice as far as a routine .. I mean .. what is your exact daily routine as far as supplements and foods. How quickly does Miralax take effect, and how long will I be on the toilet with it (would it be ok to take it, if I have plans to go out?) I don't know .. I just need help. I keep starting the entire diet over from the beginning b/c I get scared that I am not doing it right.
Thanks for listening 
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