I am starting to feel more frustrated by my ibs then anything I have ever had to deal with before in my life.
I am trying my best to get it under control. Changed my diet completley to efi, changed my sleeping habits, changed by stress management, fibre supplements and for a about a month I started to feel in control of my life again, only to be thrown off cruely by the dreaded "period". I just feel tired. The world around me is continuing at the pace I used to live at and I just can't keep up. All the positive thinking in the world doesn't keep my body from turning on me some days. I had to leave one of my best friends bridal showers early because I started to get sick. I can't go to the bachelorette party because it is happening to late and I will get an attack if I don't get the right amount of sleep. I'm afraid of going to the wedding next month because it's in the middle of nowhere, two hours travel time without any washrooms is enough to make me nauseas at the thought of it. I guess I feel alone even though I know I am not by any means. I just wish more people in my everyday life understood. Sometimes I can see the confusion on their faces as I try to explain why I'm afraid that I could get sick at the wedding...or why I can't go to a movie, or shopping. BLAHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I feel like I'm whining...I just want to be me again the me of five months ago, that would do whatever I wanted with nothing holding me back. I was fearless and headed in the direction I wanted to be going in, and now Im stuck. Too afraid to plan things, but even more afraid at the thought of living my life like I am now....I know tomorrow I will wake up and be more positive, I guess sometimes we need these down moments to put it all in perspective...
thanks to those of you that actual made it through my ramblings...I appreciate it.
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