Oh sweetie, I understand, I went through the same range of emotions with the RA and fibro dx!! At first I was just happy to have an answer to to know it wasn't all in my head!! Then, as you said, its like wow, I've got to deal with this FOREVER now!
I've tolerated the placquenil pretty well. Just a few days in the beginning that I felt "off" it didn't seem to upset my tummy too much it just made me feel unable to concentrate and a bit jumpy and edgy. Those things seemed to go away in 3 or 4 days. Remember though that it takes 3-6 months to really start working If you need some pain relief in the interm, ask about Indomethacin, its a prescription nsaid but its really helping me with the pain and swelling and hasn't been too hard on tummy although they did put me on previcid just in case!!
-------------------- Taking it one day at a time.....