When the going gets tough, I think in YODA-isms. There is so much, indeed, to be unlearned.
Of course, Harrison Ford is a babe and one of my favourite actors of all time. I love him in "Bladerunner." And of course...as Indiana Jones!
Carrie Fisher ("Princess Leia") is bipolar, incidentally. Have you read any of her novels? They're pretty funny.
Hugs to you once again for seeking support. How's it going re-orienting yourself into life, etc.? You're brave and have GUTS and COURAGE and dare I say "balls?"!!!
One of the bonuses of bipolar is that we're generally a whacky creative bunch...so consider yourself in good company!
May the FORCE always be with you; indeed it is within you.