Maybe this is more common than we think..
07/14/05 07:09 AM
Because that's what I feel like I'm going through right now. I am such an over-achiever and perfectionist that I just don't think I'm capable of really dropping out of school and changing my mind like some people seem to do so easily. I've wanted to be an interior designer since I was little, but when last fall semester started I was a wreck and really didn't want to do it anymore. Not that I didn't like it, but I just saw myself going in another direction. Needless to say I felt like I would be letting people down if I changed my mind and being so close to the end, I would have felt awful to have wasted THAT much of my parents money.
I've always seen myself as being a career-ish type women, but then being able to work from home once I have kids whether it's designing window treatments for people or crafty things.
I guess at this point I'm glad I'm sticking it out because even if I only want to actually practice interior design for a couple years, the education is something that I can really apply to so many things and I think I'd always be a little disappointed with myself if I'd quit.
But I've really decided that when I do my internship in the spring, I'll move up to New York City or Connecticut and then do the 2 more years of internship I have to before I can take the test for my license. But then I want to buy an old house somewhere up there and renovate it all myself and eventually turn it into a bed and breakfast. I've decided that that is the perfect application of all my passions. Then I'll move back down here to raise a family near my family and open a store to sell my crafts and purses and all that good stuff in.
We'll see how all that pans out, but I guess it must be common to have that freak out time where you just really don't want to do what you're doing and only continue because you don't want to disappoint other people (or yourself for that matter).