I am never going to accept this. Out of the blue I began having issues almost 3 years ago. Two days of uncontrollable bowel movements on the way to work and I have not been the same since. Bloating, stomach pain, constant sensing of needing to defecate, and uncontrollable bowel movements about every two weeks. Frantic panic attacks when a bathroom is not accessible. Needing to go RIGHT NOW and then having nothing happen. After all of the testing found nothing I was dx with IBS. I tried Heather's diet for 6 months and eliminated everything from my diet. No coffee or tea except peppermint and fennel. No alcohol, dairy, red meat, fried foots, fats, HFCS, soda, and grains. No tobacco. Took the acacia fiber and peppermint bills. Took dicyclomine, hyoscyamine, Zoloft, and other meds. Did the hypno CD's twice. Exercised. Tai Chi. Buddhism. Chiropractor. Acupuncture. Meditation. Nothing really helped. I have no real stress in my life except for this which is now in control of my life. I panic my way to work and through meetings and I wear a diaper when I ump Little League games just in case. I am 42 years old for Christ's sake! I am at the point where I am considering either stabbing myself in the leg with a hunting knife or driving my car into a concrete overpass on the highway. I figure that it might reset my synapses or something after they fix me up. My doctor disagrees but, obviously, what does he know? I cannot accept that I am going to feel the way I feel right now for the next 40-50 years of my life. I am not going to make it. And this is WITH happy pills. I have a wonderful wife and two wonderful boys. At this point, if it wasn't for them I would be in a high tower somewhere with a rifle. Any suggestions?
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