I've changed my life completely.
I tried eating only bread and drink only water and the Fiber all day...I woke up with diarrhea. Every day this week I have felt awful, and have had bowl issues, and this is the week that I gave up all of the irritants from the book. I'm trying to live off of white rice and bread, I can't stomach white rice, so I will put soy sauce on it, which while its still gross, I can atleast eat some of it. I wrote down a list of everything the book said was okay to eat, and I ate them...Now I'm worse off then I was before. I have a big thing coming up, a fantasy faire in which I have to camp there. And for some reason, the more I try to to better for my body, the worse it gets. I've been taking the fiber every day, I'm pretty sure peppermint only makes things worse, theres absolutely nothing I can do. I'm stressed, I'm panicked, I feel sick, I'm doing absolutely horrible, every day.
I've tried everything. All the tips, hints, pills, directions...and all I see is my condition worsening. I read on this site that if you need to just get your body back into regularity, just eat bread for 3 days and drink water. The day I tried it, I woke up with diarrhea the next morning. This trip is coming up, and I'm terrified of being in a car. This trip has a 15 minute road with no stops. If anything happens in that amount of time...What could I do? Nothing. I read every day about people getting better and how they can deal with this issue, find a way to live with it. I can't. The more I try, the worse I get...Its ironic and twisted that tests and treatment for this problem requires me to do exactly what my problem is...Going long distances in a vehicle, away from all bathrooms.
First I get that cramping feeling in my stomach, I get a cold body sweat, and tons of pressure in the lower area.
I'm even considering that fiber is bad for me, because all I can remember being on it is still being worse. I don't know what to do, I'm afraid, I'm suffering, I can't leave my house (ever), and I'm completely and devastatingly sick of this life. What can I do?
::EDIT:: I went to the faire...First weekend, stayed up till 7, felt like garbage, went all the way up there, 40 minute trip, I cut each road section into a designated number of minutes. I got there, Someone took our camping spit, We had to move everything and set it up in the worst camping spot ever, I felt like more crap, I set my tent up, I layed down, it was the hottest freaking thing I've ever been in, so I opened the tent door, slept for a little while longer, woke up, felt like more crap, got up, went into the big tent thing, drank water, felt worse, got my costume on, felt like ridiculous trash, went back, felt like throwing up, layed down, fell asleep, woke up, fell asleep, woke up sun burning me, felt like horrible trash, ate raisins after a lecture about my mom admitting me to a hospital if I don't start eating, felt like throwing up, mom made me eat chicken, we didn't have propane to cook the chicken, decided to have me go buy something for me to eat, I decided to just go home, I went home, the trip home was rough, I felt sick, I ate stuff at home, felt like throwing up, was kind of worried something bad might happen to me, and now, after that long explanation with terrible grammar and a million commas...I'm sitting here typing this up, I'm depressed, I absolutely hate my life, and all that time spent making my costume was for nothing. There is two more weekends of this, I really don't want to go, but after my mom helped me build my costume for such a long time, theres no way I can just not go.
Edited by Fuzzle (08/04/07 10:25 PM)
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I can't stand this.
