Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Feeling SO alone....I know you will understand tho!

Tonigh is Purim, a Jewish holiday. And we eat a meal tonight and again tom. Since I'm not haveing a meal at my house...we got invited out.

But I am STRICTLY gluten free now. and people ALWAYS mess up my food. And hubby will have been fasting all day so I def don't wat to drag him home if there is no food for me. It's SO FRSUTRATING!

The worst part: When people ask me why I'm eating my own food. Why I brought my own food. WATCHING everyone eat pastries, bread, etc.

I don't want to go frankly. I do NOT feel happy about any of this. I feel depressed. Alone. And like an outcast.

Why did I ever agree to going? Right...I agreed when I wasn't thos strict about my diet....

We are about to move. I HOPE that the place we move to is more accomidating! here it has NOT been easy (why we're moving).

I stay home OFTEN because of my issues with food. I opt eating at home instead of going out to avoid these situations.

I am tired of being by myself...but I am anxious about dealing with these issues. When we 1st moved here...someone invited us for Fir. night dinner. And the man said no problem on my special diet. I got there and there was NOTHING I could eat. So I ate what was there and got sick from it.

It's SO Awkward as well! A part of the MEAL (a religious act), is to eat bread. And I don't wash and eat the bread. I feel bad enough not being able to do this act... PLUS everyone is like "Why didn't she wash?" I get stares, questions, etc. I just want to be left alone!

It hurts to be so different. To be left out.

To be accused of being anorexic.

To be asked "Well...can't you have bread SOME TIMES"

I just want to cry. I want hubby to go without me. I want to hide from the world sometimes.

Why can't people keep their mouths shut? Don't they know how embarassing it is?!?!

I know, I know...I need to learn to stick up for myself. Tell the lady that asks why I don't eat this and that, politely of course "I'd rather not discuss it". "I just don't eat that." But instead...I end up crying. I go home and stay up wanting to eat cause I'm so hurt by what happened. (Which I have NOT done lately, thank G-d!)

PLEASE send suggestions, hugs, anything positive my way! I need a lift! I WANT to back out...but I WON'T! I'm a fighter...and I will NOT back out now. (At least I hope I won't!)

The woman hosting tonight asked if she could make me a salad. With corn. From a can. I exaplined I can only things that are not from a jar/can and are fresh. in the last community I lived in...people were sooo muh better about it! They were FAMILIAR with celia, IBS, and who know what! Here....it's a CHORE to have me over since I require special food. It HURTS! (Part of why we're moving again).

Thank you for reading...sorry so long!

Love, Ruchie

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Formerly known as Ruchie

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