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Lynx
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Hypnosis doesn't seem to be working
#230469 - 12/09/05 06:51 PM
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My C just isn't getting better at all after nearly 50 days of this. I feel like its getting worse, really. I'm having a difficult time tolerating this and am considering overdosing on all my laxatives just to find a little relief. Even if that means a fatal amount from the Milk of Magnesia. its so easy to do... just exceed the amount that I'm already taking. Go over 4tbs and it can make you sick... I'll drink the whole frigging bottle! I just don't care now. I'm tired of this. I don't care if I die from an overdose on the Milk of magnesia and taking a whole bottle of magnesium supplements I have stashed away. If that's what it takes to finally find my freedom, then so be it. I'll take my own life. I swear I'll frigging do it if this doesn't stop soon. I feel horribly psychotic and unstable mentally at this point. I feel euphoric and anxious with a nervous feeling of simply losing it and going mad at this point. No one seems to be able to understand this - especially the one person who should be the most understanding and and supportive... my dad. I can't talk to him about this at all. I want to see a pshychiatrist about this. I want to go back to the doctor but I can't talk to him about it at all!
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Marilyn
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Lynx - the hypnotherapy is not necessarily going to address your IBS in just 50 days - and it has not been 50 days of non-stop C - you have reported feeling better early on. Try to remember that you have felt better than this, and that you can feel better again.
You are having lots of other issues in addition to IBS, please honey, I have suggested this to you in other posts - please go through your school, your church, your community, YWCA, local hospital or medical center - just walk in, or call depending on the agency, and tell them what you need. There are resources, and they can not only help you, but in most cases, they are confidential as well. As far as money to pay for this help goes, if you call your local village hall, or church, they can direct you - you need someone to talk to in person.
Now, that being said, I will tell you this - the hypnotherapy program sometimes works in a way that goes back and forth to find a balance - it adjusts a bit, and during that adjustment, a few people find their symptoms seem to be worse, but they really aren't. The symptoms sometimes get better, and then come back a bit, but they seem worse than they were from the beginning because of the contrast. You reported early on that you were feeling better - and this most likely is a setback - but in the meantime, please see a gastro for your C if you feel that despondant -
I am sorry your dad is not helping you or supporting you.
We here in cyber space can't step into your life and help you do what it takes to feel better - the hypno program is a start, but it isn't an immediate panacea for all the issues you are dealing with.
I know IBS and the pain it causes can make one feel suicidal. I have spoken with many who have felt this way but they persevered and got thru it and now feel way better. There is hope - but you must seek more guidance than what we can provide here on the BB.
If you really do feel suicidal - please call one of these hotlines:
1.800.SUICIDE (784-2433
http://www.suicidehotlines.com/
http://www.hopeline.com/
And please post to us here that you are OK - I am going to alert Heather, the owner of this site and BB to your post as well - suicide threats are serious - and we love you and want you well---
(((((HUGS)))))
~ Marilyn
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Linz
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You haven't given it enough time! Sometimes it can take three whole rounds of hypno for it to work best...half a session is NOT long enough to say it isn't working. Ditto on the diet.
You have GOT to get separate help for the depression.
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Lynx
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I'm okay. I haven't done anything and I really don't want to. Its just so difficult living in a world where no one understands or can even begin to fathom the pain you're in. That's what its like for me. I feel as if I'm the only one out there who's going through this since there's no one else in person who I know who has this problem. My dad constantly tries to put himself up onto my level as if he has the whole IBS thing all figured out. He's even told me, "its just stress related. You weren't as bad when you we're on break" He doesn't realize that I was as bad. I just didn't realize it during the summer. It doesn't make sense to me that he would say things like this then start arguing with me about it. Does he really think that the stress that he's adding is going to help? I wanted to tell him that, but didn't because I knew it would only start another argument. He makes me feel like garbage. I'm only baggage to him. I plan on attending I Saturday Christian church session tonight not far from where I live. I'm sure that even though most of the people there won't know me, they'll give me more comfort to me in an hour than my dad could in a lifetime.
I'm more cleared out today. Drank a lot of water and Citracel yesterday along with starving myself so I would be. I'm terrified to eat anything now because I don't want to be clogged again for days, weeks, or even months again.
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Marilyn
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So glad to know you are OK - I was praying for you and worrying about you all night.
Well, I hope the church session works out - ask if they have young adults groups - many do - and this may be an area to connect with others.
But you are not alone in your suffering - there are lots of young folks suffering as you do - you just have not come in contact with them - OR they haven't shared that with you. My daughter is in a similar place as you are, though a few years younger, and she feels isolated too - that no one understands, but she has three therapists - one through school, one in town here, and then a medical doctor who has given her Zoloft to treat her anxiety. There is help out there, and I am so sorry your dad is not as supportive as he needs to be, but hopefully you will have a start this evening - good luck! xx
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karenk
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Please dont feel that way Keep trying I was so sick for so many years and my docs said there was no treatment and I had to sufer and have pain I said F U
and went to UCLA I have a great doctor who ran so many tests and now I am on medicationa and I feel better. I have a lot of flareups but I am bettter and I am going to get bettter and better I am getting better and beter every day in every way.
I pray, I do yoga I se a therapist and a psychiatrist There is help and I have had one tape already of Michaels and I am so positive. Please be positive
See a therapist
And pray
I listen to Joel Osteen at the Lakewood Church in Houston Look for him in your TV directory He is so uplifting
Please dont give up hope
K
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Cyndy
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Karen?
#231109 - 12/12/05 07:41 PM
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What are your symptoms? What have you found/take to help you? I would love some input.
thanks
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karenk
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I had very severe constipation I would go maybe onec a week It was very hard and painful and I did everything itook laxatives and enenmas and supposotories and tried to eat all the right stuff I had horrible abdomenal pains and rectal pain I didnt know if something was trying to explode aout of me or push its way in My doctors were idiots they said there was nothing to help me and I had to live live like that I beged them to try zelnorm first they siad my case wasnt bad enough whatever that means anyway i took zelmnorm for 3 months It did not help I took other things that I dont remember but I was alwasy in poainand I have a bad back whichwas getting worse. One thin though along with the constipation every now and then I became incontinent so that was a joy
Then I went to UCLA I have abrilliant doctor She ran all the tests and yes ofcourse I have slow transit but there is also some inflamation and a sphincter problem
I now can have a BM most days fromthe meds (miralax and I am on anti depressents and hypnosis and Qigong. I try everything if I think it might help
I have beeen having some really bad rectal pains now and a lot of itching and burning and I have developed reflux so I am very liminted to what I can eat I would kill for a mocha.
But my tests are next week and I am hanging in. It has ben tough Besides the back and IBS and Reflux I am also Unrinary incontinet and I need to collect my urine every day until my procedure in JAn
A few weeks back I was collecting all urine and BM to put in tubes with chemicals I havent gotten the results back yet
I will keep youposted
Thanks
K
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anlikerm
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That's my saying!! My mother in law told me that saying and I say it every single day all day long. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't but I keep saying it, anyway.
I LOVE JOEL OSTEEN!!! He's the bomb! I watch him on TV every Sunday. I have downloaded some of his sermons off of their website. He's the most positive man I have ever seen before in my life. When I am at my lowest, I listen to him and he really helps bring me back up on my feet. I love him!!! I really wish I lived near his church. I would love to go to his church but I live in Georgia!!
Keep thinking positive!! You sound like you're doing great.
Michelle 
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karenk
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Michelle
WOW
I am so glad to hear someone else rave about Joel
I want so much to know the scriptures his mother siad everyday when she was dying of cancer and she beat cancer
I think he is the best the most uplifiting person I have evr come across Everything he says is so right on target and then I listen to Shakti Gawain and dr Weil and Jon Kabot Zinn and they all say the same things all the uplifting healing things and then the Michael tapes I am only on day 2 but I know he is going to take me to wellness
I am Jewish and yet I still love Joel and watch hiom and read him and listen to his CD's I just bought a whole bunch more
We are planning on vititing Lakewood Church next summer
I know with all this positiveness I am engaged in I will recover
K
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